All of this happened in the same year and it made my life fairly difficult.
Over the years I have tried to educate people about the impact of this kind of event, as well as what happens with closed head injury. I have also sought a way to recover, in spite of everything I was told, and have been fairly successful.
What I knew about what I experienced is fairly clearly addressed in this article. I only wish I had had this information to hand out when well meaning friends would tell me to "forget".
I take that well-meaning-ness to be like telling a dying person to "have a glass of water". Another example is when people who should help, harm you; what is known as secondary or tertiary victimization. It is because others do not want to recognize that your pain is related to an awful event, one which they have a hard time facing emotionally. Just the impact of Western socialization I guess. Pause for thought on the benefit of a compassionate life.
Recently, now even more than 15 years since the events of the past have passed, the frivolous attempt of harm by a 20 something and his 30 something cohort caused alarm, waking what I call my sleeping dragon.
Fortunately it has been a mild reaction, but the action is there just the same. There is an effect on health on many levels. It also tells me that I have been correct all these years in my thinking when I deduced that trauma is a factor leading to endocrine impairment.
I just wonder how perceptive others will be for those with these same concerns, or will they only attempt to mask the problem with a drug.
Healing is a multifocal process: physical, mental, emotional and spiritual. It is very much like the lesson I learned from my aged instructor of Tai Chi. The health benefit is good, but it is not complete when you avoid engaging in the 'martial' part of the art.
Drugs and PDAs aren't the way out of this rabbit hole.
Why Emotional Memories Of Traumatic Life Events Are So Persistent
ScienceDaily (May 11, 2008) — Emotional memories of traumatic life events such as accidents, war experiences or serious illnesses are stored in a particularly robust way by the brain. This renders effective treatment very difficult. Researchers at ETH Zurich and the University of Zurich have now successfully tracked down the molecular bases of these strong, very persistent memories.
The expression “post-traumatic stress disorder” is once again constantly on everyone’s lips in relation to those returning from the Iraq war or survivors of catastrophes such as the tsunami. This is not a new development, since it always occurs when people experience extreme situations. It is known that emotional memories of both a positive and a negative kind are stored by our brain in a particularly robust way.
Consequently they have a very large effect on our behaviour and, in the case of adverse memories, they can place considerable restrictions on the way we go about our lives. As a result, we avoid places, smells or objects that remind us of the traumatic experience, because they may trigger severe anxieties. Isabelle Mansuy, Professor of Cellular Neurobiology at ETH Zurich and of Molecular and Cognitive Neurosciences at the University of Zurich, and her research group have now shown that the enzyme calcineurin and the gene regulation factor Zif268 decisively determine the intensity of emotional memories. For the first time, this has enabled the regulatory processes at the synapse, which are important for emotional memories, to be linked to the processes in the cell nucleus.
Mice as an ideal model system
The generation of very persistent memories in the shortest possible time needs molecules in the brain that are not only activated rapidly but which also efficiently control the signalling pathways of long-term information storage in the brain. This is why the protein phosphatase calcineurin, which was already known to have a negative regulatory effect on learning and memory, was a very promising candidate for the Zurich researchers. The researchers used mice as the model system because their learning processes are very similar to those in humans, and established behavioural tests already exist. In their experiments, the researchers conditioned the mice to associate a sugar solution with nausea. This association persists for many months. The mice avoid the sugar solution during this period.
However, their aversion can be overcome slowly through intensive training. Mansuy explains that “Emotional memories are not simply erased. Oppressive negative memories need to be actively replaced by positive memories.” She says it is important at the same time to understand that the negative memories do not disappear, they merely slide down in a kind of priority list and are outweighed by the newly learned positive memories. Mansuy says “This process is not final and absolute, since the priority list can change again.” Karsten Baumgärtel, a post-doctoral researcher in Mansuy’s group, stresses that this is a big difference between emotional memories and learned knowledge. “It is entirely possible for facts to vanish completely from the memory, whereas in extreme cases emotional recollections remain stored for a whole lifetime. Active intervention is necessary to reduce the priority level of negative memories.”
Reduced calcineurin activity
Studies of the amygdala, that part of the brain which is important for emotional perception, showed reduced activity of the enzyme calcineurin in conditioned mice compared to mice in which no association with nausea had been generated. Because calcineurin is a negative regulator of learning and memory, its activity needs to be reduced to enable strong memorisation. To gain more evidence about the role of calcineurin in the memory process, the researchers used transgenic mice in which they were able to selectively activate or deactivate the enzyme in nerve cells of the brain. Mansuy explains that “This selective activation and inactivation in nerve cells is important because calcineurin is an enzyme that occurs in many cells.
For example it also plays an important part in the immune defence system.” As the researchers expected, inactivating calcineurin strengthened the memory of the association between sugar solution and nausea, whereas the memory was weakened by increased calcineurin activity. The researchers were also able to demonstrate that the period of time needed to suppress the negative memory by a purely positive memory could be prolonged or shortened respectively by this intervention.
Regulation processes in synapses and the cell nucleus
Inactivating calcineurin also causes increased expression of the gene regulator Zif268 in the amygdala. Zif268 is responsible for regulating a wide variety of important genes that play a role in the signal processing of memories and learning. Simulating this increased expression of Zif268 in transgenic mice intensified memory in a similar way to the inactivation of calcineurin. This is the first occasion on which it has been possible to demonstrate this magnitude of functional relationship between the activity of an enzyme in the synapse and that of a gene regulation factor in the cell nucleus.
Mansuy and Baumgärtel stress that the purpose of their research is to gain a fundamental understanding of the molecular relationships, but that it is not associated in any way with a direct clinical application in the near future. However, Mansuy explains that: “In the past, the origin of many diseases was unknown and they were regarded as a punishment from God, and at that time those who were affected went to the priest. Nowadays we understand the mechanisms underlying them and can treat these illnesses. We hope that our research has made a small contribution to enabling the same situation also to apply in the future to psychological traumas or brain diseases with memory weakness such as Alzheimer’s, Parkinson’s and strokes.”
Journal reference: Karsten Baumgärtel, David Genoux, Hans Welzl, Ry Y Tweedie-Cullen, Kyoko Koshibu, Magdalena Livingstone-Zatchej, Céline Mamie & Isabelle M Mansuy: Control of the establishment of aversive memory by calcineurin and Zif268. Nature Neuroscience 2008 May;11(5):572-8. Published on-line on 20 April 2008. doi: 10.1038/nn.2113
Adapted from materials provided by ETH Zurich. Original article written by Nicole Kasielke.
ETH Zurich (2008, May 11). Why Emotional Memories Of Traumatic Life Events Are So Persistent. ScienceDaily. Retrieved May 12, 2008, from http://www.sciencedaily.com /releases/2008/05/080509152307.htm